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OMG! As wierd as it sounds, I'm happy for them!

I mean, it was about time. Pete could be my dad haha xD

There's like so many thigs buzzing around my head. It was so... unexpected!

I always knew they would get engaged or something. Yay!

Now you tell me what you think about this...

P.S. I think a lot of fan will be pissed off. If you're one of them: Please don't! It's their life, not yours.

Note: I didn't make up the title, Brittany [ilovebdenurie] did. She's a genius I know!

Chapter 1

I looked out the window to see a cloudless day in Chicago. I would’ve normally been happy, but this time it was different. Life itself had been different since last time, all because of him. He was the reason of my pain; he was the one who has made me cry every night for almost 15 months.

I felt the floor tremble, I had felt that before. I quickly realized it was the same feeling as when his fiancée showed up, but right now it was just the plane landing. That was one of the main reasons I didn’t like planes. I looked outside again and saw the place which was once my home, the place where I lost myself. I promised myself I would never come back, but I also said I wouldn’t think of him; I did both.

As soon as I got my bags, I walked out into the cool, crisp air of Chicago. I somehow felt like I was back home, but I didn’t want to feel that, I was just here for a week. I didn’t realize how long I had been standing there, until I felt a gentle tap on my shoulder. I looked around and there he was, looking as good as before; his hair was shorter, but his piercing brown eyes hadn’t changed a bit. I felt like I was 19 all over again.

“Hi William”

“We’re home!” My mom said as we put some boxes inside or new house of Chicago. All I could do was roll my eyes, I could barely call this place home.

“Oh don’t be so sour, Catherine” She put her hands on her tiny waist.

“I didn’t want to come here. Remember?” I snapped at her.

“Cat, this was for the best”

“You mean this was for your best!” I yelled.

“Cat…”

“Don’t Cat me. I’m going out” I stormed out.

It was her fault I was miserable. I had left the beautiful sunny beaches of SoCal, just so we could be “together”. I was even angrier that I didn’t get to finish the semester back there, so I would have to start all over again here. I wasn’t a very social person though, so friends weren’t a complication; I wondered if I’ll end up with friends here. As I was walking through the crowded sidewalks I thought about reinventing myself. Maybe this change wasn’t bad after all…

Suddenly I crashed onto someone; I hit the ground very hard. “I’m so sorry!” A guy with longish, brown hair helped me up. “It’s okay” I grasped his shoulder so I wouldn’t fall down, I felt very dizzy. “My name’s William by the way” He said in a soothing voice. I was dazzled by his perfect face; smooth skin, big brown eyes and perfect white smile.

“I’m Catherine, or Cat” I tried to smile the way he did. I failed.

“Uh you must’ve hit your head pretty hard. Why don’t you join me and go to Starbucks with me.”

“Sure!” I immediately said and smiled once again.

William opened the door for me. The air smelled like fresh brewed coffee; one of my favorite scents. His hand lightly brushed against mine, I tried to hide my flushed face. “Would you like something?” He asked. “No thank you” I answered. “Well in that case, let’s just sit down” William gripped my hand. I immediately backed away from him when I realized what he did. “I don’t know you” I said automatically. He studied my reaction quizzically.

“I’m sorry, I just don’t feel comfortable around strangers” I said

“Well, we’ve got a lot of time to know more about each other. Don’t we?”

“Hey Catherine”

I just wanted to kiss him and tell him how much I loved him. Instead I forced half a smile. “Let me take this” William picked up my large suitcase. Before I got inside his Volvo I reminded myself that I didn’t love him anymore, I took a deep breath and closed the door. I looked up to his sad eyes, but quickly looked away, I couldn’t resist feeling a bit guilty. This was going to be harder than I thought…

Warning! The prologue is a bit harsh, but the story is not that bad. This is also something kind of different from other fanfics (By the way this is a William Beckett fanfic). Hope you like it!

P.S. If it sucks very bad please tell me.

Prologue

Love is a strange thing; one day you feel like the world is steady beneath you feet, but before you know it everything collides. That person you once loved and knew everything about, turns into a complete stranger, leaving you alone trying to pick up the pieces of your broken heart. You either become a reckless mess or a worthless one-night stand. Either way, it takes a long time to get back where you were before.

This story does not belong in the pages of a romantic novel, there is not fairy tale ending and the characters don’t live in their own little fantasy world. Instead this story is about how your life can totally change in a matter of seconds, either you feel 10 feet tall or in the verge of break down. The characters in this story remain indifferent about love, they’re not perfect and neither are their actions; they still have to work and pay the bills, they don’t say “I love you” as much as they do in movies, and they have to put up with the fact that nobody ever has a perfect ending.

Lust is also a strange thing; you can live the rest of you life with a different person in bed every night, not bothering for a name or number. Sometimes you come across a pretty boy or girl, but that’s just about it, physical attraction. People these days seem to misunderstand the concept of love and lust; they think sex is mutual love and a way to make amends with your loved one. That, my friend, is a perfect example of pure, sick lust. Don’t forget lust can easily be confused with love.

Honestly, real life is hard, rough and merciless, but sometimes you find that someone who takes your hand and leads the way. Now that isn’t so bad, is it? So maybe some fantasies do come true, and love is a real thing. Million dollar question: Where is that thin line between real life and fantasy?